Sunday, November 25, 2012

Self Reliance

The pastor at my parent's church started his sermon today with a statement that shook me... 
"We weren't made to rely on ourselves." Obviously, he meant that without Jesus on our side we can't really do anything. But I spent the next next 45 minutes (because pastors really like to talk...) thinking about how it made me feel.

I'm a weird 23 year old young woman. It seems like every one in my small southern town has one goal in life: to get married before 25. It's like girls start dating boys just to have know that they'll get married, they'll have kids, they'll have someone to take care of them. 

I don't want this. I have no desire to get married any time in the near future. I have no desire for a big house covered in wedding pictures. Settling down is not on my mind. My only goal is to be self reliant.

I want to know that I'm earning everything myself, that I can be independent, that I can do things on my own. I have friends who think this way, but then their parents hand over money, rent, food, etc. I'm not saying that my parents don't help me out, because they do, but I want to make it on my own feet. I don't need a husband to take care of me. I was given my body, my spirit, & my brain. I can take care of them myself.

I am a 23 year old young woman. I am independent. I am strong. That is all I have to remember.

“Trust thyself: every heart vibrates to that iron string.” 
 Ralph Waldo Emerson, Self-Reliance